NEVER LET THE FEAR OF STRIKING OUT KEEP YOU FROM PLAYING THE GAME!!!

03:19 pm - oops ...

Like a thousand swords your gaze pierces my heart  “ never in a million years” you promised would we grow so far apart but with a few stinging words of an honest confession you take back your friendship my only true possession. I thought I could tell you, I thought I could confide in you. I thought around my best friend I wouldn’t have to hide, I thought you would listen I hoped you would understand……

I wish I didn’t miss you. I don’t know what to say or even where to start. But I would have never guessed it’d be you to break my heart. You can just walk away. But I don’t feel the same. My love for you was true and to you it was all a game. I wish there were a way I could go back in time to hold you in my arms as if you were still mine. Please someone tell me when, this pain will go away. When I’ll forget the past and move on to another day. A day where just once your face won’t cross my mind. I won’t think of our memories. I’ll just leave them all behind. I won’t think of our good nights or the way you made me feel. I’ll move on to some one new. Someone whose love is real. I won’t miss your arms around me, holding me so tight. I won’t long to feel your body pressed against mine through the night. The memory of your kiss will finally disappear and never again for you shall I shed another tear. I say all this right now wishing it would be true but now tonight, I’ll go to bed, crying over you….

At least I got it out… right?

Current Mood: sad

02:36 pm

If you wish.....

Once I was lucky. I owned your heart of loving. But what I did was give you worries and let you taste loneliness without caring. All the times we have experienced I hurt you, I had never blamed on myself only until you were leaving. Once I took you for granted, I didn’t cherish your giving. If you still wish to come back. I will use all to prove that you will never be crying. If you still wish to accept me. I will learn from a grin and end up with a smile. Times you were with me I forgot to pay attention to the way I was behaving. But now you have walked away from me. How could you just leave me that cold summer day? Year has passed since we part. But all I desire is your returning. If you still wish to believe me, I will swear that you will be the one that ever lasting. If you still wish to recall our times, I will tell from our first meet and end up with this….

02:11 pm

unsaid words whisper down my neck. like a rusty memory. a huanting vision. before time runs by too far past me. Before you move on to better things and are out of reach i'll grasp these moments and hold them close. The dilemnas that held us down. the hope that kept us alive. you've saved me from so many rough roads. those dry, barren as fuck roads i'd never thought i'd trave. but as a caged ros, you shined all you could. if no one else saw you, ive been here watching you. you might not know it, but were the only one's still standing strong. if your ready to move on, dont leave faded regret, cause i'll be standing here. even when the grass becomes the sky, i'll always be here for you. if you change, i'll still believe in you. you are so beautiful, i love you, with all my heart. all my love. all i have.  

Current Mood: okay

02:08 pm

In a sense I call it an end. I wanted the warmth of a man whatever. But I received a tainted frailty reflecting the coldness of your fear. That fear, a bitter creed of exhausted emotion: that purple abyss of forgotten treasures seeking out their rightful owner, and I am yours.

I wanted to be with you, in you and beside you. Now, I want to turn from your face and feel nothing but numbness. I want the reign of the tyrant to cease from controlling the movement of my eyelids. I’ll let you go with a cry of remorse. Because i'm yours.

With anger, with sadness and with the longing with the rejection of your coyness, with the dismay of your apathy; with an uprising of torn ardor and benevolence, I am submerged underneath your stare because I am yours.

You trampled over my heart, leaving the imprint of your name attached into my memory like a permanent scar. I miss you all of you:

I miss the strength of your hand, the softness of your touch. I miss the colors of your smile, the greatness of your words, because I am yours.

If my love would continue the dirt from your step would become my gold. If I had your whole heart I would need that and nothing else. If I had all of your love, my life would be through, for you and only you, because I am yours.

In a sense, I call it an end.

It was good

It was sweet

It was beautiful

It was perfect

And I am still yours.

Current Mood: numb